Nothing great in the world has been accomplished without passion.
-George Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

Monday, April 2, 2012

OUR TIME IN ASIA THUS FAR (IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY READ THIS...)


A Canadian Mindset


     We have been at Place of Rescue for just over a week now; yet we entered into routine in less than a day, making it feel as though we have called this home for awhile now.  Coming to Cambodia, Jeremy and I were both very excited for a number of reasons, but one being that we could finally settle down into our own place.  Traveling to different places, experiencing new foods, cities, and cultures was an amazing experience, but it was also very tiring.  Thoughts of settling down caused me to look forward to cooking our own food… having spinach, grains, seeds, fruits…. Things we were missing from our street food diet.  We had heard that we would have our own kitchen in a “house”, so naturally visions of a counter, stove, and fridge entered my mind, as a part of our “house”.

     It was not until we entered the grocery store that I began to feel overwhelmed … we had no food to start from, so we literally had to buy any and everything we would need… but we couldn’t just buy everything!  The prices in the grocery store also surprised us…. Wasn’t this Cambodia?  The land of cheap?  The items that we were used to buying back home were suddenly higher in price (now they were foreign items, thus more expensive).
     It was also at the grocery store that we learned we “...do not have power.”  ???  No power… something that we were used to in Haiti, but we also did not cook in Haiti.  No power must mean gas stove (and it did), but what about a fridge?  I must sound selfish, but this stressed me out.  We would have an “icebox”.  In that moment I did not even know what an icebox was (it’s basically a cooler for anyone who is as naïve as I).
     (Our “house” is actually a bedroom off of the school office housing our bed, desk, closet, gas stove, sink, and cabinet.  Being a part of the office offers us little privacy, but in return we look at tiny smiling Cambodian faces peering in our windows a number of times a day.  If you have to lose privacy, this is a good alternative).
     After a week we have entered into a routine of ordering ice every 2 days for our icebox, and a jug of drinking water every 4 days.  We are growing accustomed to our “bucket shower” (which was a huge shock to find!), although it could never replace our love and respect for a real shower.
     During the days we have running water for our sink, but it was this last weekend we were surprised to find that we do not have running water on weekends.  Every now and then we will find a new surprise I am sure, but, this is Cambodia, not Canada.  It is different here… life is different here. 




The Great Wife


When You are Closer than Ever Before

We were sitting and waiting for a flight when the strangely familiar smell of a stranger’s gas wafted through our airspace.  Stacey gave me a curiously hopeful look that said, “I know that wasn’t you, but I would like it better if it was in fact you, rather than that man behind us.”  Sorry Stacey, it wasn’t me, it was 14F.

Lots of Room at the Inn

As Singapore drew closer, all we had heard was that it is super expensive.  If you know someone there, stay with them because hotels are a rip-off.  Well, the only couch surfing reply we received was from Melvin, God bless his heart.  Already had 3 couch surfers at his place but he was willing to take us if we stayed in his room on an extra mattress.  Sure why not, I thought, wives love doing things like that!  She agreed reluctantly, and sushi has a way of changing Stacey’s mind about anything.  Plus, sleeping in strangers rooms would be a lot weirder if you didn’t sleep and instead you just watched them all night, waiting for them to attack you.  But then you’d be the one with the problem, not the guy who invited you in.

Thrift Store

In Haiti especially, Stacey and I felt like we were in survival mode sometimes.  If a short-term team brought peanut butter or chocolate to the compound we devoured it!  Oddly enough though, one team left many of their clothing items.  Now I know something about Stacey.  She does NOT shop at second hand clothing stores, unless they “ have cute stuff like the ones in Vancouver.”  But this is Haiti.  Stacey shopped, looked great and wore it like she bought it.  Great story about overcoming fear. 

Foreign Mattress

Probably slept on 20 of these so far.  They all smell, look, feel and taste different.  I have proved I can sleep almost anywhere, just not through noise.  Stacey is the inverse, so much that she psychs herself out of being able to sleep on rock-hard mattresses.  Seriously, who can’t do that?  So, to express her displeasure at foreign mattress she will  kick her legs skyward, landing them with a disruptive thump and then violently swing her upper body from stomach side down to ceiling side up, while I have already started sleeping, dealing with my situation, but like I said, I hope for a firm mattress.  I turn to the spastic, straitjacketed earthworm beside me and firmly remind her, “Stacey when I am uncomfortable in my bed, as gently and quietly as I can I will reposition myself as not to wake you.  How do you repay me?  By thrashing around like a donkey inside a refrigerator box.  Please stop doing that.”  She didn’t budge.  I didn’t say donkey in a refrigerator box.

Asian Stacey

People love Stacey wherever we go.  She wears an eternal smile and graciously attempts to speak whatever foreign language people oblige her with, even though she has no clue what they’re saying.  She can’t bargain worth a cent because she doesn’t want the poor shopkeepers to lose out and she’ll always try to translate every single menu item before ordering, even when every alphabetic character is undecipherable to her.  When there’s no shower, she’ll use the bucket method and you won’t hear her complain about anything for much than a moment, because she’s already thought of a clever way to make do with the situation anyways.  There is a Thai phrase that people use: “same, same, but different.”  Stacey will always be the same sweet girl that many of you won’t see much this year, but she’s different and different is always better!





Longing
Clear blue waters are easy to look at; the crash of waves is easy to listen to; but the longing to be home with family is hard to hide.  It is not always easy being half a world away.

Unglamorous
Tranquil turquoise seas lining white sanded beaches; sea breeze blowing slightly against your sun-kissed skin.  New cultural dishes, all nicely priced so one can try one of each.  Landscapes that change upon entry to each unfamiliar country; ready to explore.  These are the thoughts that enter most minds when it comes to traveling, and rightly so, they are quite accurate.  But with each heavenly thought comes a sacrifice, of sorts… traveling is not always glamorous.
Instances, such as in Australia, when all you want to do is crawl up on your own couch and eat a home cooked meal.  No more cities, no more walking, no more pictures, no more restaurant cooked food.
Or in Bali, when the money exchange guy takes half your money right in front of your eyes, but you don’t even realize… until…. It happens a second time!  It is at that time that you realize you are another easy target.
In Java, being a white female in a predominately Muslim country brings out a feeling of discomfort.  Over time one does adjust to the layering of clothes.  One also becomes accustomed to the numerous daily Calls to Prayer that are heard throughout the streets, followed by a trail of Muslims showing up to the Mosques.
By Singapore you just long for western food of any kind, to help overcome to bug that has overcome your stomach… a gift from the Indonesian food.  
A closet to call your own, instead of the backpack jammed with wrinkled clothes, is also one the wish list.  Picking up and leaving every couple of days, never having a space of your own….
Eventually Malaysia hits, and so does the longing to see family and friends.  The thoughts of home so strong.   Skype, the only link to filling our desires, only Skype doesn’t truly fill the desires within our hearts.
Thailand…. Oh Thailand.  The experience getting here was one to remember.  Crammed in the back of a minivan, behind luggage, which helps to block the little airflow available.  Realizing your life and time is not as sacred as the packages and parcels that are needed to be dropped off first.  The supposedly 8 hour trip turned 10 hours.  This was our first encounter where knowing the country’s language would have come in helpful… but how does one learn this language when the alphabet is completely different?  
It isn’t fun hiking halfway up a mountain with a 18 kg bag on your back, looking for your pre-paid hotel - booked under one name, but after nearly an hour learning the name was changed!  How Amusing!
But when all is said and done, the cultural experiences, and beauty of a magnificent red Thai sunset captures your heart, causing the annoyances of the day to melt away.
Traveling brings new experiences, both good and bad.    Cultures have their loves and hates.  This is fact.  This is traveling.  No one said it was glamorous.



Modern-Day Slavery
     While in Malaysia, we stayed with a missionary family who uncovered new information to us regarding modern day slavery in the country.  I then borowed a book that was put together by YWAM Penang, and Raise Their Voice, called “Disappointed by Hope”, which outlines 30 different stories of peoples lives who have been involved in the abuse of modern-day slavery and/or refugee camps.  This book gave me much needed information regarding an area that has been looked past in so many ways.  
     “At least 1 in every 4 workers in Malaysia is a foreigner. Migrants have become an essential part of the country’s economic growth and productivity. Malaysia is also a country of refuge for tribes and nations from all over the world. However, despite their longing for a better country, migrant workers and refugees have not found an easy life. Malaysia’s laws, policies, and practices create an environment of vulnerability for both these groups in different ways. Unlike Malaysians, they are at a legal, social, and political disadvantage.
     The reality of life in Malaysia leaves many migrants and refugees disappointed by the hopes they had of a better life. Migrant workers are vulnerable to exploitation and cheating. Because they are not given legal status, refugees are often arrested, detained in poor conditions, punished through imprisonment and whipping, and then deported.”
     In the streets here you see them, foreigners working on construction sites, as house maids, in street cleaning crews.  Many of these people are here after having fled from their unsafe countries or impoverished situations, hoping for a better life - for them; for their families.  
     Others are recruited by companies who promise their workers high wages to work in another country, offering hope to these people who long to change their situations.  In some cases, after reaching the airport, they are told their contract has changed: the pay is far less, the hours of work has increased, and their passports are taken away.  In other cases, woman, who believe they are on their way to a new career (in fabrics for example) are sold at the border into prostitution, and imprisoned by by their owners.
     Often employees demand that the workers continue working past their visa limit, and fail to fill out the proper paper work to extend the migrant workers visas. Without a passport, migrant workers are unable to leave the country at the time required for them, transforming the once legal migrant worker into illegal immigrants.  
     There are many refugees that come to Malaysia from the neighboring countries of Bangladesh, Thailand, Africa, Indonesia, and Burma.  These people are fleeing for their lives in many cases.  The Malaysian government has allowed the refugees who are accounted for to stay in the country (often they need to pay a monthly fee); however, these people are not entitled to healthcare and education, leaving many children uneducated.
     In Burma, the muslim people, known as the Rohingya people, have become unrecognized as citizens of the country, and therefore do not hold citizenship in any country.  Others in Burma have been terrorized by the countries brutal military rule and have fled out of fear for their lives.  (Fortunately, after nearly 50 years of of unethical victimization by the military, the government is promising new political reforms which will provide safety for the Burmese people). Because of the situation, many refugees have picked safe havens, such as Malaysia, to form a new life.
     Often the Malaysian government seeks to crack down on the number of illegal immigrants within the country and conducts raids, locking up the guilty in unethical and immoral refugee centers where the people are “disciplined” before deportation.  As some do not hold an identity or citizenship to their home country at the time of imprisonment, death sometimes occurs before deportation.
     While we were in Haiti, Trevor had sent us a link to an article outlining the modern-day slavery occurring in Dubai.  ( http://www.independent.co.uk/opinion/commentators/johann-hari/the-dark-side-of-dubai-1664368.html). Although the article was lengthy, I could not stop reading as I felt like I needed to know all the facts that I felt like had been hidden from me.  After reading the article I felt sickened that humans could treat other humans in such ways. Hadn’t slavery been abolished already?  
     I said that I would never go to Dubai as I did not want to contribute to the economy of such a place (although my penny would be just a drop in the bucket).  Yet, it was not until we were already in Malaysia that I learned of the slavery occurring there.  I realized that it happens so many places without the average person knowing, or understanding all that happens.  Many large popular companies, names of which we have all heard of, hire out work to the smaller, “slave-like” companies to do their work.  These companies can claim that they have not part in slavery, as they pay the smaller company well in comparison to what the “slaves” are making.  It’s the smaller companies that don’t quite pay the “slaves”.
     While walking down the street, I started to notice the signs.  A burmese worker slowly working to sweep an small area, fatigued.  The name of a unknown (to me) company on his back. The lines of clothing hanging on the bottom floors of a local hotel/apartment that is still in the early stages of construction…. I had to wonder if the workers were staying there, in the concrete shell.  I passed a sign that said “INDONESIAN AND THAI MAIDS. FAST DELIVERY”…. Delivery?  Are we still talking about people or possessions?  Another sign “Indonesian maids” - the name of the company, ‘Servance’.
     These are peoples lives that are being destroyed.  People who live and breath and laugh and cry and feel pain just like anyone else.  I feel compelled to look deeper in to modern day slavery, and learn more about what I can do.  It is hard… so many large companies involved, where do you start?  Some locals help by teaching the refugee children in a put-together school.  Some have boughten new mattresses for the 12 men sharing a 2 bedroom apartment (because that is all the construction company provided for them)…. The previous mattresses full of stains, mold, and bedbugs.  It is through touching one life at a time in this horrific tragedy that occurs.
     What more can you do?  This is a question that I ask myself.






                        Isaiah 44:9-20

                             New International Version (NIV)


                                         9 All who make idols are nothing, 
                           and the things they treasure are worthless. 
Those who would speak up for them are blind; 
   they are ignorant, to their own shame. 

10 Who shapes a god and casts an idol, 

   which can profit nothing? 
11 People who do that will be put to shame; 

   such craftsmen are only human beings. 
Let them all come together and take their stand; 
   they will be brought down to terror and shame.

 12 The blacksmith takes a tool 
                and works with it in the coals; 
                       he shapes an idol with hammers, 
                            he forges it with the might of his arm. 
                             He gets hungry and loses his strength; 
                         he drinks no water and grows faint. 
                              13 The carpenter measures with a line 

   and makes an outline with a marker; 
he roughs it out with chisels 
   and marks it with compasses. 
He shapes it in human form, 
   human form in all its glory, 
   that it may dwell in a shrine. 
14 He cut down cedars, 

   or perhaps took a cypress or oak. 
He let it grow among the trees of the forest, 
   or planted a pine, and the rain made it grow. 
15 It is used as fuel for burning; 

   some of it he takes and warms himself, 
   he kindles a fire and bakes bread. 
But he also fashions a god and worships it; 
   he makes an idol and bows down to it. 
16 Half of the wood he burns in the fire; 

   over it he prepares his meal, 
   he roasts his meat and eats his fill. 
He also warms himself and says, 
   “Ah! I am warm; I see the fire.”

17 From the rest he makes a god, his idol; 

   he bows down to it and worships. 
         He prays to it and says, “Save me! You are my god!”
18 They know nothing, they understand nothing; 

   their eyes are plastered over so they cannot see, 
   and their minds closed so they cannot understand. 

19 No one stops to think, 

   no one has the knowledge or understanding to say, 
“Half of it I used for fuel; 
 I even baked bread over its coals, 
   I roasted meat and I ate. 
Shall I make a detestable thing from what is left? 
   Shall I bow down to a block of wood?”   
20 Such a person feeds on ashes; a deluded heart misleads him; 

   he cannot save himself, or say, 
   “Is not this thing in my right hand a lie?”





                                                       

Friday, February 24, 2012

Australia



    
       
Traveling Australia was an incredible and tiring experience all at the same time.   
We ran around the cities, trying to expose our eyes to as many things as possible, in a short time.  While we were there, we were able to learn more about the history of the country, and sadly, all too much of it resembles a lost native culture due to European conquer.  Many of the aboriginal communities in the outback, as well as the Northern territories.  These are some places we did not have the opportunity to travel, but are hoping to on the future.

Sydney brought with it modern architecture while retaining the historical buildings of the past; an incredible transportation system which included trains, ferry transport and bike lanes; beautiful city parks; and near-by beaches.   
We had the opportunity to visit the Hillsongs church, which we both really enjoyed.  We went to an island called Manly, where we saw a huge pod of dolphins jumping out of the water as they swam.  And we visited the Sydney zoo, where we got to pet Kangaroos!   

                                                                                                                                                                                     Melbourne is a very trendy city, a definite hub for privately owned cafes. Throughout the city you will find graffiti; although some might cringe at this, it is fitting for this artistic city.  Many of the major buildings have an artistic edge to them; however, this city also combines history and modern architecture.  Melbourne's transportation system is also efficient, with trams, and the largest train stations I have seen.

While we were in Melbourne, we were lucky enough to watch 

Roger Federer play his first round game in the Australia Open.  It was a short game, as he dominated his competitor, but it was awesome seeing him play live.                                                          

We also toured the surrounding areas of Melbourne, which included the Great Ocean Road and Phillip’s island.  
The Great Ocean Road blessed us with stunning ocean views, as well as huge limestone structures, such as ‘The 12 Apostles’, ‘Lock Ard 

On Phillip’s Island, we got to see penguins in the wild, sleeping in their burrows.  At dusk we witnessed 100’s of penguins come back to their burrows from a day at sea.  It was incredible watching them March up the beach, and call to their mate in order to find their home.  During the afternoon, we also saw a number of wild Wallabies, which was one of my highlights.
                                                                                                                                          

We then made our way up to Brisbane, stopping in Port Macquerie where we enjoyed body boarding, and Murwillumbah where we hiked and pulled ourselves up a mountain.  Along the way we met some amazing people who opened up their homes to us.
We experienced the full extent of the rainy season, and what it means when it says “Road prone to flooding”. We had planned some more hiking onour way to Brisbane, when we came across a causeway that had become completely flooded.  Although it ruined our plans, we were grateful that we had been cut off with a way out, rather than stuck on the other side of the causeway with no way out.

In Brisbane we entered into the comfort of friends, and relaxed in their company.  It was a much needed break, and a feeling of home.  It rained the whole week we were there, but we really didn’t mind being “stuck” in doors.

From Brisbane we flew to Cairns, which was much smaller scale city, with a more relaxed feeling from the other cities we had experienced.  

We took part of a day trip on a boat that took us to the Great Barrier Reef.  On the reef we tried diving for the first time…. A very unnatural feeling to be breathing under water.  Jeremy and I both panicked a little, but we survived the 20 minutes underwater.  Unfortunately after that Jeremy experienced ear equalization problems (he’s better now).  
Following diving, we snorkeled for the rest of the day.  The reef was amazing.  It was so full, multicolored fish and coral.  It was hard to get enough of all that we were visualizing, and sadly will never be able to find the right words to describe the magnitude of awe that it is.  We never did encounter any sea creatures besides the fish though, although some of the fish did grow rather large.

Australia is an incredible beautiful country, full of amazing sights and beaches.  The water is powerful and warm, and the sand is white and soft.  It possess an interesting and unique history.  The country is so large, each part offering something so very different from the next.  We are blessed that we were able to experience the parts that we did, and to have met those that we encountered along the way.  We are hoping to return again one day and experience all new things.

                                                             

Thursday, December 22, 2011

In Less Than 24 Hours...

I never really knew what Culture Shock was, I mean, I had an idea, but in all the trips I have been on, I can't say that I have really EXPERIENCED it.  And I didn't think that I would this time either, as I was looking forward so much to friends and family and Canadian norms.  I suppose the shock that I feel comes out in almost a stunned, I don't believe this is real, sort of way.

Things which have been different:

1. Remembering to turn on the hot water to wash my hands… I have failed in this area a number of times so far.
2. Almost forgetting to flush toilet paper.  This is a conscious effort.
3. Feeling the heat on my head as I washed my hair.  This is an amazing feeling!
4. Realizing for the first time that Edmonton has soft water as my hair actually felt silky!
5. Preparing myself for the crazy Christmas traffic, but actually thinking that there doesn't seem to be anyone around.
6. Waking up this morning thinking I was in Haiti, but seeing a bookshelf a knowing I must be somewhere else.
7. Using a blowdryer
8. Using high-speed internet
9. Remembering to say "Hi" "Yes" "Good--bye" "Thank-you", instead of "Bonjour" "Au Revoir " "Oui" "Merci"
10. Enjoying good coffee

Although these differences are mostly luxuries…. we do miss our new family back in Haiti.  The Number 1 luxury that we have experienced thus far is the ability to see, spend time with, and speak to our friends and family here.  We love and cherish all the people who are a part of our lives.  No matter where we are, we will always keep you close to our hearts.

Christmas Update

     At the outset of our mission to Haiti, time seemed to stand still somedays. All our experiences could be drawn out each day, thoroughly enjoyed and reflected upon. As time draws to a close, we feel speed picking up again, trying to wrap up all the work we have attempted to accomplish, while carefully balancing the great need to nurture relationships with those we will leave behind. No one ever promised Haiti would be easy and we can see how people proclaim this country to be one of the tougher mission fields. We are satisfied that we answered God’s call, a great stirring in our hearts, and
we have felt the eternal blessings gained from serving His people. Haiti has been a wonderful place for us as a means of growth, sacrifice and inner-peace. Early each morning, we rise with the sun and commit personal time to prayer, bible reading and journalling. God placed us here to take this time seriously and we have been richly blessed through what He reveals to our hearts each day. Our faith has been strengthened by seeing people healed through our prayer and compassion. God has called us to live beyond the confines of “our” time and to serve openly and selflessly within the community, where it is not always the clock that matters, but precious moments. As a young couple used to spending ample time with just each other, we had some reservations being thrust into a community environment. Mysteriously, we have had abundant time to grow together, as we live and work among God’s people, even though date nights don’t exist. "Just us" time is" just everyone else" time. Truly there has been a valuable lesson to learn in all this. We will continue to let our hearts proclaim this attitude of service and community and experience rich growth in our marriage.

     During the past 4 months we have been serving with Haiti Outreach Ministries (HOM). Jeremy has been teaching English to the grade 1-6 students, primarily at Blanchard School, but also a few days a week at Cite Soleil School. Each afternoon he has offered adult English classes, which have been a conversation enriching time for all the students. By furthering their English study, they will have an increased chance at finding employment in a country where the unemployment rate is at a staggering 70%.

     Stacey is the school nurse for both Blanchard and Cite Soleil School. She has been shadowed by a local nurse with the expectation that this lady will take over independently after Stacey leaves. The students have been cared for extensively, parents have been educated on how to better look after their children’s basic needs, and many problems with personal care have been rid of. Very importantly, there is now an in-depth documentation process for tracking students medical records for years to come!
     The children have been the highlight of our trip and it has been a joy to work with them. Every day they make us laugh, think, and sometimes shake our heads with their wild and energetic behavior. They really are an intense bunch! Leaving them after several months of such close contact will be very hard, especially when we don’t know if we will see them again. God has placed them under our care and direction for a time and it would be a blessing to be with them again if He wills it. We love them so much and we feel like they are a part of our family. 

     Our mission to Haiti has met some challenging points, but nothing that we complain
about here compares with the with the everyday struggles of those in poverty. We don’t live in Cite Soleil, but we live as close as you can get. People in leadership here have been robbed, many people distrust their fellow neighbor, and even we as foreigners are taught to live in fear. However, never once have we been worried about our safety, and through it all we have kept our mission at the forefront of our minds. We know without a doubt that we are his servants and that his people are our people. God is so, so good!

The Future:
     As we look ahead to traveling through Australia and serving once again in Asia, we are
hopeful that God’s good plan for us will continue to unravel. In Indonesia, Malaysia and
Thailand, we have a handful of contacts who are going to lead us through their ministries. We will be exposed to street ministry, orphan care, AIDS initiatives and church activities. We have been strongly encouraged to consider Asia as a long term assignment and it will be interesting to see how God focuses this time. Thank you to everyone who has created these divine appointments for us.
     We will arrive in Cambodia in mid-March and work at Place of Rescue, an AIDS
orphanage, for 3 months. Here we will be part of a community of children diagnosed with AIDS, and destitute grandmothers, who have been left without family due to AIDS. Our primary purpose here will be to teach English, but we already know God has much, much more in mind.
     Thank you for your support of our mission. It has been encouraging to receive financial
support, prayers, emails, Facebook messages, Skype calls and even a package! The blessings that these gifts bring enable us to keep pressing on, knowing that we have the strong covering of believers back home. Any financial gifts for travel are funneled through ACOP, of which almost half has been covered. Donations towards living expenses in Cambodia can be made through Place of Rescue. All expenses are strictly missions related.

Please continue to pray. Stacey has battled some minor health problems and we both desire to give with compassion, patience and generosity as we serve. This will demand our best, our all.

Much love to everyone, Jeremy and Stacey



Donations can be made to:
ACOP (www.acop.ca)
#119 - 2340 Pegasus Way NE
Calgary AB. T2E 8M5
(403) 273-5777

Place Of Rescue Foundation
Box 27096, RPO Tuscany
Calgary, AB T3L 2Y1
(403) 973-5470

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The Change of Heart

       The last few weeks I have come to realize that Haiti has somehow entangled it's way into my heart.  Within a few weeks of getting here, I had said in a moment of frustration, "I could never live here!"  I don't know if this statement is still true…..   Surprisingly, the longer you live in a place, the more of your life it becomes.  The smells of garbage, smoke, and urine that once haunted me, I seldom think twice about…and sometimes don't even notice.  I have definitely grown accustomed to the sight of garbage and animals everywhere, as well as the random naked body.  I have come to love the people.  I look at the faces of the children and my heart fills with joy and compassion.  It will be heart-wrenching to say good-bye.

       Living within the community in which we work has enabled us to learn the dark secrets of Cite Soleil, deepen our understanding of Voodoo, and expose us to the common superstitions that possess the people who live here.  We have had our hearts broken, as children have revealed their hunger pains to us.  We have learned that much suffering is covered with a smile.  We have gotten over our frustration of our over-protective Haitian friends, as no Haitian trusts another, taught from an early age to look out only for oneself.

       This Haitian experience has changed the hearts of both Jeremy and I in so many ways.  As we look towards the future of new cultures yet to come, I cannot fathom how much more change there will be.  I anticipate each place will bring it's own challenges and growing pains; but, we have seen how much strength and wisdom comes out of those experiences.  I have prayed, and continue to pray that I will be filled with patience and joy, and that I would not look past hidden cultural treasures.  I have learned to slow down and take in the things around me (as anyone who really knows me knows that I do not notice anything. This is due to the distractions and schedules that are always in my mind).

       As I have risen with the sun, and watched the magnificent colours of each day, I have realized that each day brings with it another chance: a chance to allow someone to bring joy to your life, a chance to make a difference in another's life.  There is always opportunity.  Where ever there is another person there is a chance to impact that person's day or even life.  The purpose of life is to LOVE; however our schedules eat up all our energy and time that often we are consumed by frustration, worry, anxiety, and loneliness instead.

       Before leaving for Haiti, we had a number of people say, "I wish I could do something like that".  You can.  You don't have to hop on a plane to do it though.  Just cross the street and help your elderly neighbour with her snow; go downtown and help the homeless man sitting outside Starbucks; stop and change that lady's tire for her, even though it will make you late.
     
       These are small gifts of love you can give to someone, often for free and with little sacrifice.  I challenge my friends and family to take this step.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Impatient Goodbye (or My Here and Now)

When Stacey and I departed for Haiti, it was easy to see the lure with which it drew us in.  We vocalized our intentions to people, felt restless stirrings in our hearts and deliberately planned to set apart time for it to happen, so it would indeed happen.  I can pinpoint the time in which I grew impatient to leave, right around the time of our arrival back from our mission in Cancun with Millwoods Christian School.  It killed me to be back, some days I exhausted myself wondering if I would ever be able to live until God put us back in the international mission field.  
Flash forward about 9 months or so and I feel a similar pull the other way, generating pangs of impatience and conflicting emotions.  I am excited to see friends and family, after all its been a long time, the most substantial time we’ve ever spent away from home.  There is a steely hold that firms its grip around time’s throat when the hours are ticking away though.  I felt it last February and I feel it now.  A multitude of events await us, beckoning for our attention.  How are we to faithfully live out the rest of the here and now that Haiti has to offer, while Canada clamors for our attention?
Though nobly I might seek to justify my impatience in February as deep heart murmurings and a supreme groaning in my Spirit, I never needed to dwell on those longings in the anxious way that I did.  I knew as a result of prayer and commitment that these desires would come to fruition once more.  Still, I became uptight and agitated, trying to balance my plans with God’s unbudging side of the scale.  I had a classroom full of eager students, thrilled to be joined with their captain once more, though I acted more as if the ship was sinking than as if I’d just discovered dry land.  A time for rejoicing and much good witness gave way to forlornness and anxiety.   
To be frank, “leaving” always kind of freaks me out.  I desire a Christmas at home with family, but it is hard to leave this island which most times definitely feels like our home.  I want to see my friends and enjoy our goofy Canadian activities, but I want to make it clear to these people that we will miss them dearly and that are not abandoning them!  No one can deny that going back is hard and maybe after first couple trips, the real culture shock is experienced inversely, when you return to the glut of North America.
So here’s my problem and I am sure that others can relate.  Whether I live in Haiti or Canada, Australia or Asia, there is man’s time and there is God’s time.  One of them spells death, the other is yearning for salvation to happen.  One of them confines us, the other implores us to let it be.  Unless I daily discipline myself to be patient and enjoy absolutely everything, whether big or small, dull or interesting, long or short, English or Creole, I will miss out, maybe even find myself adding up the ill-used hours at the end of life, filled with regret that I couldn’t enjoy the present.  Or, I find it, realizing that life goes on, no matter how we box it up, into a place with no beginning and no end, just the here and now, just where God asks us to be.